Busted out the damn pot...

GROWTH.

If I had one word for these past 12 months, that would be it.

I wrote a poem about it.

Woah

The shakeup

Guess we all needed to wake up

Now the snakes are up too

Wait, they've always been

Just seeing their truth

So I can show mine

Or at least try...

Dear reader, please make your own perception of that poem, read this blog post, then reread the poem and see if you perceive it any differently.

This entire world got a rude ass awakening this year.

When you begin to raise your consciousness, you start to see people's true faces. My blindfold got ripped off. I even see through the legislature that politicians write up like what is this pile of wild bullshit? People look me in my eyes and I can instantly tell when they are lying. I can smell a deceptive person from a mile away at this point. My circle has shrunk DRASTICALLY because of this. And honestly, if you know me, my circle was already what I considered to be small. Or what society told me was a small circle to keep. My eyes started to peel wide open to behavior I had overlooked for YEARS in individuals that I called friends, lovers.

Holy shit, maybe I should change the word for the year to THE PURGE.

Yeah, I like that.

It was the biggest, most blessed, and definitely divinely guided release.

I purged physical people, painful energy, resentment, anger. I purged each and every thought and idea that has been planted in my mind about me, for it wasn't my truth. I found my inner child in the core of the Earth and reminded her that she is safe and strong all on her own. I reminded her that she can stand up for herself physically and that she can speak her most authentic truth.

You see, if you asked me in 2019 - I would've told you I truly was doing all of those things. But boy was I wrong. I really was believing the things I had heard about who I was and how I showed up in the world and let that define me. The worst part is that I deceived myself into believing that was my truth...

I am so much more protected in my energy now. Notice how I didn't say "protective of," but "protected in" - because I'm not stressing over it. I trust and have surrendered to the truth that I am an energetic being. So I know that as long as I'm focused on myself and maintaining my vibe then the higher frequency individuals and opportunities will meet me inevitably.

My faith was tested. There were many moments when my strength wavered. But I found myself every single time. And I made a promise to keep on finding myself. To always be willing to dive deeper within myself. To always be willing to be more vulnerable with myself. To never stop rediscovering my truth any time society tests me to lose it. To always come home to myself now. Me. Truth. Love. Love for self. An unconditional, ever-developing love. Me.

Woah

The shakeup

Guess we all needed to wake up

Now the snakes are up too

Wait, they've always been

Just seeing their truth

So I can show mine

Or at least try...

The other day I looked up the definition of this word I see so often, Namaste.

Namaste truly means, "I honor the place in you which the entire universe dwells. I honor the place in you which is of love, of truth, of light, and of peace. When you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, we are one."

I know now when I honor me, I learn better how to truly honor you...

Thank you for being a part of my journey and for making me a part of yours.

Let's never stop healing and persevering for our truth together.

Namaste...